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It’s not an “either/or”
At Disneyland again with bonus kid, their friend who is visiting for another couple of weeks, and their bio parental. I’m enjoying being A Mom, taking care of logistics, making sure people have fun. Shawn and I had planned to come to Disneyland this month, just...![What I choose to grieve](https://www.thefullnessofyourpower.com/wp-content/uploads/2023/02/WhatIChooseToGrieve-1080x675.webp)
What I choose to grieve
Last night, I dreamt I was at the edge of an ocean, vast and boundless. Although there were no waves, the surface was choppy and opaque. I was afraid it was cold, and I was anxious it might get too close. ***** I have been avoiding my Cognitive Grief, trying not to...![How I grieve for my dead husband](https://www.thefullnessofyourpower.com/wp-content/uploads/2023/02/CelebratingLife-1080x675.jpg)
How I grieve for my dead husband
Last Thursday, my husband of almost a quarter century dropped dead from one of those “widowmaker” heart attacks. It was a shock but could have been so much worse than it was; I may write later about being grateful for small blessings. A lot of people have been...![Pain sinks deep its claws](https://www.thefullnessofyourpower.com/wp-content/uploads/2023/02/pain-sinks-deep-1080x675.jpg)